it's not easy for me either
life's not always
such a fun ride
sometimes it's all
i can do
to pick up right foot
let foot right
and keep on moving
i've found the end of
the infamous rope
and i've tested God
to just let me fall
i've run wild
both eyes closed
and tempted
the hand that holds me
to let me crash down
i've been in the
darkest nights
paralyzed in hate
too
i've thought those thoughts
that have haunted you
praying please just
let me go
don't want to stay here anymore
i've seen love and hate, fear and peace all collide
praying for grace
again and again
and i've cried for faith
at the foot of a cross
and looked up to dark skies
questions that make it all seem
too unbelievable to believe
i've
wondered
why
i've tried and tried
wrestling just like jacob
and it's not easy
and somehow in this
uncertain place
there's something here
worth living for
i'm held in a
steady grip
sometimes i don't know why
but i'm held
still breathing
still walking
still wrestling
and it's not easy
not easy
to just be
small
in a mighty hand
a word
in an incredible enigma
weak
in a powerful force
a breath
in eternity
not easy to bow in humility
and know
it's not about me
there's something greater than me
leading me here
holding me here
keeping me
it's not easy
not knowing why
©2007 by Brittany Mayer
