Sunday, June 15, 2008

grace...

could i love you more
my heart in the palm of your hand
my love abandoned to you
wrapped in you
our bodies one
beating in you
my heart
held by you
my soul
satisfied
spirit so high
and you hold me
you know me
precious love
there's no lonliness inside me
held by you
you become my sustenance
source of eternal fulfillment
sweeter than red wine
to my soul
you know me
God's grace
is this gift
oh and you love me
what more could i have
ever asked for
greater than shakespeare's
mighty loves
you know me
you still love me
i am held by you
swimming in your heart
how beautiful this grace
my heart beating in you
wrapped in you
could i love you more
our bodies one
beating in you
God's sweet grace
to know and be known
to love and be loved
by you

©2008 by Brittany Mayer

Monday, June 9, 2008

good mercy...

held by
love unconditional
through pain and horrors untold
the steady hand still
keeps me
through the shadowy
valley of death
fear does not take me
for you are holding me
though I fall
you will catch me
your staff
guides me
next to your chest
i am comforted
you feed me
when i am hungry
the banquet of a king
before those who hate me
serenity and peace is
your nature
in your gentleness my soul
rests
you renew me
though pain immeasurable
terror untold abounds
i will rest under the
arms of the shepherd
surely your goodness
is your mercy
always with me
your love forever
my dwelling place
truly my cup runs over

©2008 by Brittany Mayer

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

will be, might be, will it be...

what a world
this world will be
if one day...
perfected anticipation
the shadow's light
to live and die
pure
love in it all
nothing deceptive about it at all
... if maybe
this love could be
greater than the questions
simpler than the answers
what a world this world
would be
impossible for me
yet he lived it
hands and words and feet and
what a world his world
would be
might be
will it be
the answer to the mystery
i still haven't found
the key
but
searching for answers
i am awed by this love
his love
and what a world this world
would be
if this love was
greater than the questions
simpler than the answers
what a world this world
will be
might be
will it be
©2007 by Brittany Mayer


Wednesday, September 5, 2007

why...

it's not easy for me either
life's not always
such a fun ride
sometimes it's all
i can do
to pick up right foot
let foot right
and keep on moving
i've found the end of
the infamous rope
and i've tested God
to just let me fall
i've run wild
both eyes closed
and tempted
the hand that holds me
to let me crash down
i've been in the
darkest nights
paralyzed in hate
too
i've thought those thoughts
that have haunted you
praying please just
let me go
don't want to stay here anymore
i've seen love and hate, fear and peace all collide
praying for grace
again and again
and i've cried for faith
at the foot of a cross
and looked up to dark skies
questions that make it all seem
too unbelievable to believe
i've
wondered
why
i've tried and tried
wrestling just like jacob
and it's not easy
and somehow in this
uncertain place
there's something here
worth living for
i'm held in a
steady grip
sometimes i don't know why
but i'm held
still breathing
still walking
still wrestling
and it's not easy
not easy
to just be
small
in a mighty hand
a word
in an incredible enigma
weak
in a powerful force
a breath
in eternity
not easy to bow in humility
and know
it's not about me
there's something greater than me
leading me here
holding me here
keeping me
it's not easy
not knowing why


©2007 by Brittany Mayer

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

would you...

want this heart to be
filled with passion
mind young, innocent again
spirit free
meaningful life
before this body is
just ashes again
want to jump off
the highest mountain
arms wide open
abandoned pure
maybe you would
still hold me there?
undetermined but purposed
that's how I want
this breath to be
wholly passionate
and free
unbound by
this binding crushing heavy world
let go of it all
falling into you
would you still hold me there?
would you breathe
into dry bones
fill this thirsty body
passion and innocence
freedom and truth
before this body is
back to ashes
ashes
again
would you still hold me there?
could we live this life
like we will wish we had
would you be there
at the top of it all
ams wide open
abandoned
would you let go with me?
deep drinks I want to take
from living water
this heart will beat again
filled with passion
the sweetness of innocence
sobering freedom
abandoned pure
would I find you there?

©2007 by Brittany Mayer

Thursday, July 5, 2007

we were...

we were young
crashed into an old world
crushing of innocence
suddenly aged
still wearing child skin
such a crushing
words swallowed back
fear
confusion
hate
things unfelt before
little mind wandering
trying to make some sense
of darkness cloaked in cheap light
why the shepherd bites like a wolf
the world keeps spinning
and then the images
come back
the unhealed wounds
still bleed
those swallowed words
come back up
tears for the first time
betray a hardened, crippled heart
echo the pain
acknowledge wrong
And then there are questions
unthought before
refusing to take it as it is
questioning questioning
child in
aged skin
sees the world for the first time again
wide-eyed in darkness
seeking
seeking...
there's a story told
'bout a scattered flock
the shepherds despised and destroyed
the weak they crushed
the sick they left unprotected
the injured they broke-
these little sheep
wandered away
afraid and terrified-
but a sovereign king saw these sheep
compassion welled up in his heart
he left his throne
became a shepherd
in search for
the crushed
the unprotected
the broken and despised-
wide-eyed in the darkness
He found and gathered them
through the shadow of death
he protected his sheep
with a comforting rod and staff
in peace he lead them
from darkness into light
he guided his sheep-
with justice
and love
He found and redeemed them.
there's a story told
some say is true-
full of justice
peace
and redemption...
child in
aged skin
sees the world for the first time again
wide-eyed in darkness
seeking
light
truth
the good shepherd-
This is the story
we find ourselves in

©2007 by Brittany Mayer

Friday, June 29, 2007

revolution

where is the faith
the ancients
clung to
the passion
the great man
gave his life for-
where is the life
men of old
died for
defied authorities for
denied complacency for
where is the truth
men of old
left everything for
lived differently-
radically-
for
oh sleeping generation
living not
a shadow beyond
the things
dreams and nightmares
are made of...
When will
this
generation
rise
and
seek
life
we will
die for
defy authorities for
deny complacency for
truth
we will
leave everything for
live differently-
radically-
for
The dawn of
this beautiful revolution
is breaking into
this sleeping generation
lulled by dreams and
held by nightmares-
rise
and
seek with
all
your
heart
for the truth
who wakes men with
faith,
passion,
and life
...and He will be
found by you.
it is
the dawning of
a beautiful
revolution

©2007 by Brittany Mayer